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Wednesday, November 03, 2010

Slacking Off...


Ok, I admit it - I've been slacking... I say I want to write (& I do) but then my blog goes lacking...

For those of you that are interested - I have been busy working on some stuff...I have started painting, again - I've also begun to include some other fun and useful items to my "collection of goodies". ( like jewelry and handmade journals -- yay!

I've nearly completed my motivational/ Life coaching Program (It's called the Lighthouse Program). I'm currently working with some people to get it launched!

I know it doesn't seem like much, but coupled with my other "activities", such as working and mommy-ing (I'm a poet - I can use words like that)I've been quite busy.

So the updates:

Yes - new work will be posted soon

Yes - I know it's November and it's NANOWRIMO month so, yes - I do plan to try again if anyone is interested in joining me - I am a few days behind, but apparently my sister is right on target...phooey -I'm jellie...

Yes - it's November, which means that the baking has begun! If you don't already know, during the holidays I encourage everyone to bake at least one batch of cookies, a cake or or pie with or for someone you love in memory of my little girl and for the sake of spending time with family( you can find the blog entry in my archives ) - so,please, please please "Bake a Batch of love" with your loved ones this year!

and yes - I still have plenty to write about, but if you know me - you know I'm not into typing - Yet. (trying to psych myself out - maybe I need to get one of those speaking programs)

Those are just the highlights...plan to be back before the end of the month...

until then...
Be blessed

(oh and comment me with all the yummy goodies you guys are baking...maybe even some pics?)

Friday, June 04, 2010

WHATS THE BEST PART ABOUT BEING A MOTHER?


This may sound corny, but... The best part of being a mom is seeing my kids laugh and smile... from my toddler to my married daughter, whenever I see one of them laughing or smiling - I light up inside!

Ask me anything

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Today, I wrote LOVE on Her Arms...




Today is "To Write Love on her arms Day" - To draw attention to depression, suicide, self-injury and addiction

http://www.twloha.com/vision/

The following was written with permission from my daughter:

Today I wrote LOVE on her arms. I used the faded lines of the marks left behind from when she used to cut herself. Thankfully, they have almost faded completely away, but I used the few faint lines I could find to begin to write the word: L…O…V…E.. then I embellished it as pretty as I could before sending her to school. The girl is my daughter Gigi, who, at the tender age of 11 began to cut herself.

She’s 15, now, and no longer does it. Years of love, counseling, self-help and lots of prayer! have helped her to find alternative ways to deal with her emotions, but unless you’ve been there yourself, you have no idea how scary it can be to see your little girl’s arm bleeding from cut marks. To be honest, I thought that was something little white girls did for attention(no offense meant), I never thought the problem would be more than just knocking at my front door; it would be setting up shop in my home.

She hid it for a long time. I saw changes in her behavior I really didn’t understand: moodiness, defiant behavior, lashing out - then silence, I knew some of the signs were signs of depression, but what I didn’t know that after the lashing out and then subsequent silence, she was hiding in the room – cutting herself – then hiding the evidence with long sleeved shirts. I, honestly can’t recall when I first saw the shocking sight, I just remember feeling numb (and dumb) when I did. How could I have missed the signs?! What if I didn’t find out until it was too late? (many cutters try suicide) For a long time, I lived in fear of have an argument with her because I was afraid of what she might do to herself…

But I did find out in time and thankfully she has responded well to therapy. We still deal with the depression on occasion, but we’re working on that together. I'm also glad she taking such an active role in her own recovery.

So today, I wrote LOVE on her arms and on her sister’s arms and on mine, too. Not just for her, but for me & for my mother, for my nephew that committed suicide, for the family members and friends I’ve personally known that have conquered depression and addiction and for those still struggling to recover…

And for those that are wishing someone would help them…

so..Please,for today, write LOVE on your arms.

Be blessed.

Saturday, March 06, 2010

It's in the Mail...


I don’t know about you, but every time I hear the US Postal Service is in trouble, I shudder. I do...literally. Yes, I know, we are all about the emails these days or if you can’t catch up that way there’s always Facebook and Myspace, not to mention text messaging, Twitter and a myriad of other online social networks to help you keep up with family – and total strangers, for that matter. Having an event? Send an E-vite. Birthday coming up? Send an E-card. Paying bills? Do it online.

So what’s the big deal right? Well, although I love the fact that MySpace and Facebook have given me the opportunity to contact old friends and family that I otherwise would have probably lost contact of - possibly forever -however, there’s nothing like the feeling of getting something good in the mail.

Just the other day, my baby sister decided to something special for one of my daughters. She knit her a scarf with a matching headband, bought her some funky jewelry, bright nail polish, a fashion book, two cards of encouragement and bunch of other stuff that would excite most teenage girls. Then she packed it all in a USPS box, addressed it to “Princess Gigi of the Fairies”, marked it “Priority” mail, and sent it off. Mind you, my daughter didn’t know of the package, but I did and every day I’d excitedly go and check the mail (you know, in case it came early).

The Post office was certainly on its job and just as promised – three days later the package arrived! My daughter wasn’t home, but I still called my sister and let her know that we had received it. Now it was her turn to get excited! You could feel the anticipation in the air; me walking around the package tempted to open it -my sister calling and text messaging – “Is she there yet?” -You would think we were the ones getting a surprise!

When my other daughter came home from school, she too, got excited about the contents of the package sitting on the table and before she could get sad for not having one of her own, I told her that her aunt was already preparing a box just for her. Just the thought of knowing a package would be coming for her was enough to put a grin on her face from ear to ear!

When Gigi finally got home we ALL stood around her as she opened her box and emptied out its contents. We tried on her scarf and matching headband, listened as she read her cards aloud and commented on how the jewelry choices her aunt made were so perfectly suited for her. And when the excitement died down, she quietly went into her room to call her aunt and thank her.

Bottom line is, I’ve never had this experience with an email. No matter how great. I know there are thousands of font styles out there, but none can equal even the worst handwriting when it’s in the form of a letter written just for you and sent in the mail. I doubt future movies with romantic plots will have people getting just as excited over finding their grandmas old emails as people get when they find a stack of love letters hidden in the attic.

I write because I love the feel of pen to paper. Period. Do I enjoy the fact that typing is faster? Of course. Do I find it exciting that, as a blog writer, my writings have the potential to reach the world via the internet? Of course, I do! I even enjoy the occasional funny or inspirational email or connecting with distant friends online, but to me, nothing beats good, old-fashioned, most times reliable, sometimes not, too slow for most people –snail-mail…

The Post office go out of business? Heaven forbid…

May you be blessed with some “good” mail today…

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

A smile or a fingernail?


Since I was a little girl I have always been a stargazer. I remember watching my first lunar eclipse (as much as I could stay awake for) when I was about 12 years old…amazingly it was centered right at the very end of Flatbush avenue, I felt like God did that just for me - just so I could see it.

I’m still a stargazer, to this very day and it doesn’t matter to me, whether it is during the day or late into the evening. I’m always excited when I spot something that appears new or unusual (to me) and just as I thought as a child, sometimes I feel like God is showing off…just so I can see…

Needless to say, I’ve raised my children with this same stargazing mindset….we take finding shapes in the clouds to completely new levels and we get excited, collectively, when we hear of some phenomenon going on in the sky. If I’m outside and see something interesting – I’ll run inside and call them out – if they see something interesting they do the same for me. {As matter of fact, about two years ago, they saw a bright comet in the sky one night and called me out to see it….silly me, I assumed that it was a falling star and I’d miss it any way so I didn’t go out, but apparently it wasn't and was bright in the sky for a long time! I ended up missing it! :-( ... But I digress…}

With this in mind, imagine my excitement when my eldest daughter – now, married and living out of the house – called me one night to tell me that I had to run outside and see the moon! She said that it made her “happy” because in her words: “God’s smiling at me”. So despite the cold weather, I got my slippers and wrap and quickly went outside to see “God Smiling”. Talking to myself, I asked God if He was going to smile at me too. But when I get out there I saw no moon. I continued a little further out, hoping it wasn’t lost behind the trees or a building and there; behind the house was this big ole “Cheshire cat grin” crescent moon. It‘s rare for me to see the crescent moon in that way, but it gave me reason to smile and laugh along with my baby girl because God "smiled" at me too!

The next day, I told her of my experience and asked her if she shared the Smiling moon with her husband and she said she had, but that he didn’t see a smiling moon – what he saw was a "fingernail", as if God were pointing downward…like “look at you!’’.

Now, I’m not saying my son-in-law believes God was judging him, or her for that matter, but I found the response rather odd and it made me think what about others? I just assumed that everyone would see the moon and think “smile”; a fingernail was the furthest thing from mind…

So I pose this question to you…how do you see God? Is God a "smile" or a "fingernail" to you? Do you think He’s taking every opportunity to smile at you? Or do you think He’s pressing down His finger of judgment?

Do you think He delights in you? Or do you think He's fault-finding?

Don't get me wrong, sometimes we mess up, but if our hearts are sincere and we ask forgiveness and turn away from the ways that would bring disappointment, then He smiles with us...and at us...

Here's to God "smiling" down on you!

Be Blessed

Monday, January 25, 2010

If you want to help Haiti

The following Information came from the group page of "Earthquake Haiti" on Facebook ... it's a great source of information for anyone interested in the Haitian Crisis

SEARCHING FOR RELATIVES

ICRC Family Links website revamped making it easier to check for missing relatives. Visit www.icrc.org

HAITI EMERGENCY CONTACT PHONE NUMBERS:

Anyone attempting to connect with family members or friends traveling or living in the region should call the On Call International hotline: 800-576-5172. Or, they can call On Call International collect at 603-328-1924. Callers should have as much information as possible readily available at the time of call, including tour operator name, itineraries, hotel information or cell phone numbers.U.S. citizens in Haiti can call the Embassy’s Consular Task Force at 509-2229-8942, 509-2229-8089, 509-2229-8322, or 509-2229-8672. To get help or find information in Haiti call: 1888-404-4747 or 202-332-4090, you can also call signal FM at: 305-407-2119.

The State Department Operations Center has set up the following number for Americans seeking information about family members in Haiti: 1-888-407-4747.

Family News Network of the International Committee of the Red Cross - Haiti - Earthquake 2010 - Locate your relatives go to: http://www.familylinks.icrc.org/WFL_HTI.NSF/DocIndex/locate_eng?opendocument

WARNING:

We are aware that so many of you want to lend your immediate support. We ask that you only donate to legitimate relief organizations at this time. The administrators of this page will help create a list of local orgs in Haiti, US orgs and other international orgs. Please beware there will be many scammers and illegitimate orgs and fundraisers that will try to trick you. This is not a time to profit off of the death and misery of millions of Haitian people.

http://www.icrc.org
http://WWW.REDCROSS.ORG
http://WWW.REDCROSS.CA
http://WWW.YELE.ORG
http://WWW.CLINTONFOUNDATION.ORG
http://4636.ushahidi.com/search_post.php

Text "Yele" to 501501 to donate $5 YĆ©le Foundation, founded by Wyclef Jean | Text "Haiti" to 20222 to donate $10 on behalf of The Clinton Foundation | Text "Haiti" to 90999 to donate $10 on behalf of the Red Cross

In the meantime feel free to visit www.cnn.com/impact

FIND FAMILY IN HAITI

To search for missing family visit www.cnn.com/haitimissing

Also for further information on Help for Haiti please visit the White House website at
http://www.whitehouse.gov/blog/2010/01/13/help-haiti

CANADA:

Text 'Haiti' to 45678 to donate 5 dollars to the Canadian Salvation Army Earthquake Relief. To verify see: http://www.salvationarmy.ca/textdonations/

Friday, January 15, 2010

Just a word...

Ok, I'm going to do my best not to get preachy, which would be all too easy to do in this situation...but this whole Haiti thing has me shook-up. No it's not the Pat Robertson thing -I'll leave that alone- it's the fact that it's only been a few days since the earthquake rocked Haiti and so many people in the "social media worlds" (Twitter, Facebook, Myspace etc.) are going about their business as if something catastrophic hasn't just happened.

Mind you, I don't expect anyone, especially anyone that hasn't been personally affected by the quake on some personal level, to go all out, but I'm sure I'm not the only person that has seen people posting requests for loved ones and asking that we (the readers)pass them on...

Now come-on...if I can get all of those silly apps on Facebook(like the "RIP MJ pillow fight"...huh?) or one of those ridiculous email chain letters...come on you know the one...yes..that one..the one you sent "just in case"... or read the (sometimes) mindless babble of people that want to make sure I'm a part of every aspect of their lives...then surely, at least for a little while, I can stand to read through the requests and pass them on for everyone else to see..."just in case"...because this "just in case" might really be a matter of life and death...

just saying...

Be Blessed

Wyclef is trying to do his part...will you help?





This is for US citizens...use your cell phone and it will come up on your bill...

Say a Prayer for Haiti...







No I'm not Haitian...just Human...

Friday, January 01, 2010

Happy New Year!!

Well, It's 2010 and didn't want to start the New year off by procrastinating on writing in my blog. Most people have "lose weight" on their list year after year -- mine is "stop procrastinating", a habit that has dominated my new year's resolutions for far too long!! So even if it's this tiny little entry...I did it!!

BLahhhh! <(sticking out tongue to the procrastination monster)

Looking forward to more...

Be blessed